cause
somehow it´s just easier right now.
lots of beer
laughter
kissing
took you home with me
had the best night
IN YEARS.
"you´re so pretty".
"i love that sound you make
when we kiss".
"omg, how cute you are."
after that night
texting
A LOT.
daily
almost hourly
"i´d love to see you again!"
living so close to each other
but yeah ...
you and your hobbies, right?
no time at all
always on the run
a thousand things to do
and then this one night
1 AM
"sorry, i´m drunk."
"i´d love to see you RIGHT NOW."
"wanna come over?"
oh SURE i want!
we´re on your bed
everything´s so fragile
you talk about your ex.
and all i think is
"damn, i LOVE the shape of
your mouth" ...
of course we kiss.
of course there´s more than that.
"you stay here tonight?"
"no. i can´t."
i cant´t, because
i´m afraid you won´t like me
by the time morning comes.
i´m afraid you regret it.
i´m afraid the sober you thinks i´m ugly.
i´d love to stay
but
well
i simply can´t.
a quick kiss goodbye.
and since that ...
you´re gone.
as if this "thing" between us
never existed.
no texts.
no nothing.
i text you
your answers
cold
and
with no soul.
i´m so angry
about MYSELF
to let my heart
get so deep into all of this
after this short time.
you were an open book
you told my so much
family
friends
books
ex-girlfriends
feelings
as if i´ve known you forever.
thanks for leaving me
with these feelings
thanks for leaving me
feeling stupid
feeling
like a stupid teenager.
